Thursday, February 18, 2010

Surviving My PhD Program

Well, it's been a while since I blogged. Mainly because I have so much required reading and writing that blogging seems too much to add to my to do list.

So, I'll start by being honest. I am in over my head this semester. I hate the New Handbook of Organizational Communication. AND I cannot believe I read almost 1000 pages a week. I'm exhausted. All the time. I keeping telling myself, this too shall pass. I will eventually be out on the other side. But that side feels so far away. I think I did this to myself. I need to take breaks, which I do not always do. When I get stressed, I isolate myself so that I can get work done and reduce the stress.

Thursdays and Fridays are the worst days of my life, it's when I read all my work for the next week. AKA, my attempt at not cramming.

Today, I did nothing. The NCA conference deadline is tomorrow. Thank God. No longer will anyone call me and ask me to make any more panels. I am DONE. And I am returning to saying NOOOOO when people ask me to do things.

I want the snow to melt around here. Not for any wonderful reason, simply that I just want to play soccer and work off some of my stress. Speaking of stress, I thought about joining a graduate student support group, because this work load is crazy and I feel the incessant need to complain. I despise my students' complaints. Yet, I have a few of my own.

OK, that is all for now. I have to read for class.


The Book of Renee and Ryan said...

You're doing a great job Gina!! It's only a small sacrifice now towards a promising future! I want the snow to melt too, mostly because I miss the sidewalk and am ready to see some green grass and spring flowers!

Meg said...

It's good to see that you feel the same as many of us do. Some of us tend to wear our hearts (and opinions) on our sleeves. Myself included. I think that may be why you are greatly loved and respected by all. You appear to be wonder woman! However you are dealing with the same overwhelming emotions as the rest of us. You just keep them in check. I need to take the approach that you do. I believe I may get more respect if I complain less out loud. Perhaps my blog can be my outlet. Love you Gina. You're doing great hun.

kellyvandersluismorgan said...

You're my PhD heroine, Gina. Keep your chin up, because you're doing a great job.

On that note, I'm back to looking over your 750 proposal. ;-)